A Heart That Is Healing

Well, it has been a little over a year since my last relationship. I do not normally talk about my personal life , but after hours and hours of working with my therapist. (Everyone needs a good one in their lives!) I have finally found closure. I finally am able to move on with my life. You see this person who I dumped was a severe alcoholic who had been disbarred by the Texas Bar Association he owed money to clients he failed to represent and he also had warrants out for his arrest. I did not know any of that I found it out on my own. Which was a hard enough pill to swallow. The Alcohol thing I tried to look past , but eventually it was too big of a problem for him. I am not against a drink in a social setting , but for the love of Moses a person should not have to have a beer at seven in the morning. Lone Star Beer at that…..I cared for him and will always to a certain degree care for him , but it pissed me off that he could not be honest. It angered me that he was choosing a substance over me. Imagine having a liquid being chosen over you. I am a successful recovering addict of 8 years now and I know a thing or two about recovery and addiction and so I knew that this was a battle I was not going to win. So, I finally just let him go. I went into a state of depression. I tried to date , but nothing sparked my interest until in December when I started texting this guy. He was from a town where I have relatives and so I thought what the hell he sounds interesting. Then he began to date someone else. Well, I held on to his number because I had met him it turns out a decade before and had a crush on him then and so for some reason I kept his number. Well, a couple of weekends ago I was going to visit my aunt and uncle and I sent him a message as I was passing through his town and he sent me one back. Turns out he had just broken up with the guy he had been seeing and so we began talking. Well I went to meet him for the first time and he is the kindest person who is working on his second Masters degree. He speaks French and is just too good to be true. So far things are going well it is still early and we do live in separate towns , but I am going up to see him again this weekend. So something must be going right. We will see I am still skeptical and will always be. But, I guess you have to keep your heart protected and just go with the flow and live in the moment. This is the most personal story I have ever blogged about and I actually feel relieved that I could get this off of my chest. I guess the moral of this post is always run a background check on an Attorney if you are going to date one or just steer clear of them altogether. They are poison to date. Oh, and never give up looking for that happy ending. It just may come one day. If it does it does if it does not well I will be dead and it won’t really matter.


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